adjustments

So I've been thinking about all the upcoming adjustments in our lives. My fella was given his "end date" at work. He will officially be retired the first week of April. 

Emotionally, he's all over the map! Sometimes he's happy and sometimes he's pissed off and sometimes he's really bummed. I think it's mostly normal things. Except that he keeps talking about all the things he's going to do around the house. I'm super happy he wants to do those things but honey!....cha ching!! Come on now! But even so, what's he going to do when he's done with those things? I think about alllll that stuff.

The one thing I hadn't considered, until yesterday, was ME! How is his retirement going to affect ME? OMG! He's going to be alone all day. When I get home he's gonna want to talk. I have days where I'm just sick to death of people talking to me. Uh oh. And what about the cleaning and cooking? OK, so I'm totally OK with him cleaning. He's actually better at it than me. But he doesn't cook, ever. I like cooking. I don't know if I want to give that to him! Maybe sometimes but...
Then I had another thought. I REALLY enjoy those days off that I get that he doesn't. I like having a day to myself every once in awhile. I'm never going to be alone again. (stop laughing Mom, it's not funny!) I'm never going to have a day that I can just sit and read, quietly. I'm never going to have a day that I can watch whatever chick flick I want, happily. I'm never going to be alone again. OMG!!!!
I am sad!

sigh

Oh, it'll all work out...but whew, change is tough sometimes!