Nobody ever uses that statement the right way. Shakespeare wasn't talking about a stage that actor's do their thing on. He was talking about the stages of life. Did you know that? Anyway, there are a lot articles out there about the stages of life. This one is pretty good;
http://www.planetofsuccess.com/blog/2016/the-four-stages-of-life/
I was thinking about all of that because, by the end of the month I will have entered a new decade. Usually, that kind of thing doesn't phase me. This year though, I HATE IT. It's taken me a little bit by surprise, that I don't like it. To be honest, I'm actually depressed. Isn't that dumb? Ugh. I think that some of it is that for the first time ever, I'm feeling my mortality. I'm truly passed middle age now and on the back side. That's new to me. Also, I'm not happy with the person I am. That's new to me too. Maybe it's just years of being bombarded with that whole stupid, narcissistic idea of being the best version of yourself and self love. (a different discussion for sure). Kind of like when my mom said that she hated turning 30 because she grew up with that idea that "you can't trust anyone over 30."
It must be a "stage" of reflection. You know, what have I done with my life, what have I contributed/accomplished, blah blah blah. And I don't need anyone to bolster my self confidence or anything. I know I'm ok, I don't need a list.
I'm feeling very sorry for myself I guess. I know I'll get over it but damn! It sucks right now.
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